The Clock and the List

June 26, 2023 · essay · 8 min · attention · media · titan · adriana · public-grief


The nineteen-year-old brought a Rubik's Cube. He could solve one in about twelve seconds, and he carried it everywhere, so he carried it onto the submersible too. He had written to Guinness World Records ahead of the trip. He wanted the record for solving a cube at the bottom of the ocean, and his father brought a camera to film him do it. In his mother's telling, he had put it plainly: "I'm going to solve the Rubik's Cube 3,700 metres below sea at the Titanic." They boarded on Father's Day. His mother and his younger sister rode out on the support ship. Before the two of them sealed themselves into the sub, the family hugged and made jokes.

Four days earlier and most of a world away, another father stood on the roof of his house in a village high in the mountains of Pakistan-administered Kashmir, watching his gate. He was waiting to see his son come through it. The son was thirty-eight, a baker at a local hotel. He had worked in the Middle East as a laborer for about a hundred and twenty dollars a month and come home because the work was hard, and he wanted to earn enough for a house and a car for his wife and two daughters. To pay the smugglers who would carry him toward Europe, the family had borrowed twenty-two lakhs, about eight thousand dollars, from relatives. The last the father heard was a message from Libya: he was getting on the boat. That was just before it set off, on the fourteenth of June. From the room where the travelers had waited, the son had sent a video. They lay on top of each other like sheep, the father said, and had not eaten in days. Later, officials came through the village with a list. It had eleven names on it. The father said the village had lost a young generation of its men: his son, and four of his nephews. The youngest of them was nineteen.

One story came with a cube, a camera, a depth, and a countdown. The other came with a roof, a phone, and a list.

The submersible held five people, and all five died. It was a sealed tube about twenty-one feet long, with a ninety-six-hour supply of air, lost on a dive to the wreck of the Titanic; its debris turned up about sixteen hundred feet from the bow. The boat held somewhere between four hundred and seven hundred and fifty. A hundred and four were pulled out alive. The recovered bodies numbered seventy-eight, then eighty-one, then eighty-two as the days passed. Hundreds more were missing, in water near the deepest the Mediterranean holds. Count those believed aboard against the hundred and four saved, and the dead or missing come to somewhere between three hundred and six hundred and fifty. Set the sub's five confirmed dead against that range, and the dead or missing on the water are roughly sixty to a hundred and thirty times as many.

The attention ran the other way. There is no clean way to weigh how much the world looked at each, but there is one number anyone can pull: the English Wikipedia pages for the two events. In the June data those pages returned, through the twenty-sixth, the sub's page drew about thirteen times the views of the shipwreck's. Both peaked on the same day, the twenty-second, the sub outdrawing the boat about fifteen to one. The measure is crude and tilts toward English readers. By the time the air was said to run out, the gap had become its own story. A rights advocate called the contrast horrifying and disgusting. The coverage that week kept returning to the same question: why one set of deaths held the world while the other slid past.

The gap is not a puzzle of arithmetic. It is a difference of shape.

The submersible was a countdown. It had a known start time, a number for the hours of air, a cast of five you could name and place, and a famous wreck at the bottom already fixed in public memory. A cable network put a clock on the screen and ran the seconds down toward the moment the air was said to give out. Every hour was a fact a person could follow without knowing a thing about deep-sea craft: less air than the hour before. And no one in the public knew the ending. There were reports of banging, of noises in the water; there might, for a while yet, be a rescue. Broadcasters opened their newscasts with it. It was a story you could climb inside and wait.

The boat had already happened. By the time most people heard, it was over. It sank early on a Wednesday, and what it left behind was a set of sums: how many aboard, which no one could fix; how many saved, which was one hundred and four; how many bodies, which kept ticking up by ones; how many names a village could put on a sheet of paper. There was no clock. There was no chance the public could watch for a rescue on some named morning. In one country, a hundred and ninety-three families had given DNA samples, to match the bodies already recovered or to keep on file while their people were still officially missing.

There is a plain mechanism under this, and it has been measured for years. Charity and feeling run highest for a single person we can see and name, and they fade, rather than grow, as the number of the suffering climbs. One boy with a cube is a person. A reported hundred children in the hold of a boat is a figure, and a figure is a hard thing to grieve.

The attention did not follow the size of the loss. It followed the shape of the story.

The obvious objection is that this is really a story about class and country, and the objection is right as far as it goes. A seat on the sub had been reported at a quarter of a million dollars. The people aboard had names in the headlines inside a day, and faces, and family statements. Some families had borrowed about eight thousand dollars to put a son on the boat; many of the dead reached readers first as numbers, lists, or missing-person records. A shopkeeper from the same part of Kashmir, who lost a cousin and an uncle on the boat, put it this way: a submarine with five rich people was given more consideration and coverage than the migrants on the Greek boat, and for the poor there is no such chance. He is not wrong. And the bias runs deeper than access. Long before any story could take shape, it decides which deaths are treated as routine, filed under a heading the reader already knows. A migrant boat going down off Greece is not new. A category is waiting for it.

Status decides who gets the materials. Shape decides whether the materials become a vigil.

But money is not the whole of it, and pretending it is lets the rest of us off too lightly. Wealth and status decide whose cube becomes the detail everyone knows, whose mother is interviewed, whose name reaches the front page while the story is still warm. They hand some people the raw stuff of a story fast, and leave others to be counted. What they do not do is give the story a clock. Even if more names and faces had arrived sooner, the boat had still gone down. There would still be no countdown to watch, no ending held open, no thin morning chance of bringing anyone up alive. Status decides who gets the materials. Shape decides whether the materials become a vigil.

Even the closeness we felt was partly a thing we built. One relative has said the boy was terrified of the trip; his mother has said he had wanted to go for a long time; the record holds both and settles neither. We did not know him. We knew a cube, a depth, a clock. It was enough to keep watch.

On the support ship, when the ninety-six hours ran out, his mother wrote to the family that she was preparing for the worst. His sister did not give up until the call came about the debris. Afterward the two of them said they would learn to finish the cube themselves, in his memory. They knew, at least, what had happened.

In the mountain village there were no bodies in white shrouds and no burials. Parents sat out in the street. The funeral prayers had not been said, because the families were still holding the thin thread that a name on the list might yet be among the rescued. The father was still on the roof, watching the gate. No one ever put a clock on the list of eleven names. A clock is a thing the world knows how to watch.